Library Page Interview

I just got the call for an interview at the county library on Friday. It pays less than my current job and its less than 10hrs/wk, but the important thing is that if I get the job, I’ll have my foot in the door working in a library. :D

The expierence is greatly needed and would look lovely on my grad school application. Here’s to hoping!

What Freedom Tastes Like

My comment over at the Quarter Life Monologue’s latest entry:

Your second paragraph reminds me of the first time I was alone at an airport by myself. My local flight led me to Charlotte before I was to take off for the Seattle-bound flight. There I was, 19 years old, on my own for the first time, with my backpack on, a purse across my body and a camera dangling from my neck. I had my family back home waiting for my return and my best friend in Seattle waiting on my arrival. It was a glorious place to be–between two places where I was wanted and expected. Yet I could step out from the terminal and into a cab and whisk myself away and no one would be the wiser where I had gone. It was the truest sense of freedom I’ve ever tasted in my life.

I miss that. Now I’m a few years older with a full-time job, my own car, pay all my bills + my dad’s, yet I do nothing but go to work and then come home again. Tomorrow I’ll wake up at 4:30 am to go back to work. I was penniless at 19 but now I have some savings. I keep storing money away for the future, but part of me keeps wondering, “why?”

Anyways, you’ve taken the words right out of my own heart. Welcome to 2009.

I may have posted on this topic before, but it still stands true.

On A Personal Note

Today my boyfriend of 26 months and 22 days and I broke up. It was cordial. We even went to lunch together afterwards and then sat in his car for an hour talking about work and catching up with each other. The official reason is “we weren’t together anymore.” I thought I’d feel lighter, more on track, but tonight I think I feel lonier than ever. I was fine before him and I will be after him. However, the world seems a little sadder when love has gone. We discover and make love so easily and even easier, we let it slip away.

I went window shopping and wandered aimlessly around for awhile. The night air was balmy. Almost warm. It did not carry the snow it had earlier in the week. The weather felt like summer and then I remembered my best friend. I haven’t seen her in three years. I feel a little worse for the wear tonight.

Work Update

My updates are so exciting.

I realized today that my new position is the happiest I’ve been at a job. No one is yelling at me, I’m left alone, I work mostly alone, I sort things, I process things. It’s good. It’s calming. The best part is that the day flies by. I don’t ever go to lunch early. I usually take it at the last possible moment because I get so involved in my work. My coworkers come by and express pity for me, but then tell me how great Claims is looking. Yeah, that’s my handiwork right there. I’m away from the public eye, management doesn’t bother me, I work away resilently processing. There is also the increase in hours and pay rise. On the other hand, I’m still worn out when I get home.

It’s great.

Then on Tuesday, it will be the second time since 9/11 that I’ll be proud of my country. The first was this past election day. I plan to sit in front of the TV on my lunch break and sob my way through the inauguration. It’s looking to be a pretty good year.


1 a: to rise above or go beyond the limits of
b: to triumph over the negative or restrictive aspects of : overcome
c: to be prior to, beyond, and above (the universe or material existence)
2 a: to outstrip or outdo in some attribute, quality, or power
b: to rise above or extend notably beyond ordinary limits
via Merriam-Webster

My friend’s company needed ideas for what what I think of when I hear the word “trascend” and these were the results.